Love, I could never hate you

Love you. I do. You're horrible.

"Lyra, you need to calm down."

No please stop it, this is cruel.

"Lyra, I would never hurt you."

I know, I know, don't come near me.

"Lyra, stop it!"

I'm sorry I didn't mean to hit you that hard. It's all your fault what do I care you deserved it. I'm sorry. Ryan, forgive me please. Oh no, no that can't be what it looks like. Please keep it away from me. Stop, go back, go away, go far away! I don't want this, I don't want you!

"No, Lyra wait, I'll put a bandage on it. See, like this. My blood won't hurt you, I promise."

Get away from me! I'm begging you Ryan, stop this now!

"Please just calm down, just once, please."

I'm sorry, Ryan, I can't do this. Don't worry; I know that you love me. I love you. I've always loved you. I always will. You're my one and only love, forever and for always, bound by hugs before hugs became terrifying.

"For once I just wish that we could see each other without this fight. It's like I can never be good enough for you. You need to quit being so childish!"

I'm not childish, I'm just me. I'm lost, I've always been lost.

"You're being stupid, it's all in your head and you're pushing everyone away because of this stupid paranoia! The germs are not out to get you!"

Maybe I am a child, but you're not anymore. I love you, but I can't love you like I did when we were real kids.

"I..."

No, why did I speak?

"What?"

"I'm happy to see you again."

That sigh, I know that sigh. It's all okay. I'm sorry, I wish I could be braver for you, but I'm too afraid of them.

"We were the best team. I miss you."

No, don't cry.

"Don't cry, please. You're the best doctor, the bravest doctor."

They don't frighten you somehow.

"I just can't understand what happened."

I know, I'm just being paranoid, but I know too much.

"All of the things we had to do to make everything so sterile..."

"Yeah, I remember now, they didn't work and you couldn't stand that. It's okay now."

"I love you."

"I love you too. So do Mom and Dad, they told me to tell you."

Mom and Dad, I haven't seen you in so long.

"Lyra, I've got to get back to work."

I'll miss you again.

"I'm glad to have a brother like you."

You deserve a hug.

You're the one person that I could never hate.